Grief is a Motherfuc%@#
The foundation of what you built your life on is rocked. The very essence of your being. Who and what you identify with and as—is being rattled. There is no stable ground.
The foundation of what you built your life on is rocked. The very essence of your being. Who and what you identify with and as—is being rattled. There is no stable ground.
It’s strange when you think back and see all these signs that something was about to change. But in the moment they didn’t mean anything at all.
After trauma your mind is a jumbled mess. I am so scatterbrained right now and have no idea where anything is. I have no idea what’s happening tomorrow or an hour from now, so I’m unable to answer questions the way I did before experiencing this.
It was about 10 minutes before I was going to say bye to the boys and leave for a few hours, come back to pick them up. Grab some groceries or maybe just a quick dinner. Get ready for bed. Wake up. Go to school. Come home and have dinner with daddy. About ten minutes before that regular Sunday routine could take place is when I got the call that changed my life forever. The world immediately started spinning, but slowly. I was in shock. And then I realized what the hell was happening.